The things you take for granted are the things you can’t afford to lose. I am not sure where I heard that before, but they always seem to have greater resonance whenever I turn on the news anymore. Watching the news has morphed into an exercise in self-abuse yet my heart goes out to the folks in Oklahoma after a tornado that could only be described as an apocalyptic monstrosity.
My first instinct, as I am sure it is with anyone, is to rush home and grab hold of the ones you love and squeeze them so tight they nearly suffocate. Yet the aforementioned sentiment was clearly on my mind as my wife and I have been fighting as of late, for what now seems so ridiculous. It’s really strange how you can fight one minute, and the next almost forget why, but that’s marriage I guess, though it shouldn’t have to be.
You would probably be surprised that I am not much of a communicator. I don’t like confrontation – most of us don’t – and I am not big on talking about my feelings. I can write about them all day long, but when it comes to speaking, I am usually – and ironically – at a loss for words.
I am not sure why that is. And it’s incredible that my marriage has survived for 13 years being this way. It’s a real testament to the woman I married, that given all her health crises, she still has the patience to put up with all my shit.
My thoughts have been all over the map in recent days, but they always find themselves going back to my wife, and my feet-in-mouth disease. And I am ashamed to admit that I couldn’t stop thinking about that when T.J. Hooker was in with Cecilia Milhade, the Bordeaux rep from Vintus. Cecilia was in the States and came by with four Bordeaux she and her family represents:
Chateau Damase Bordeaux Superieur 2009. Grade=Very Good. 100% Merlot. Fleshy, rich and full-bodied – a real treat. Phenomenal value and very approachable for Cali Cab fans.
Chateau Recougne Bordeaux Superieur 2009. Grade=Outstanding. 75% Merlot, 15% Cabernet Sauvignon and 10% Cabernet Franc. Full-bodied, dense and generous with its chocolate espresso notes, touches of black currant, black cherry, dark plum and cedar smoke.
Chateau Tour d’Auron Bordeaux Superieur 2009. Grade=Very Good. 100% Merlot. Impressive with rich cherry character, notes of pepper, black truffle and dusty earth.
Chateau Lyonnat Lussac-St.-Emilion 2009. Grade=Outstanding. 70% Merlot, 15% Cabernet Franc and 15% Cabernet Sauvignon. Full-bodied, dense and multilayered. Dark chocolate, black berry fruits, cedar char and dark roasted coffee beans.
What got me thinking about my wife was Cecilia’s story… the house on the label of Chateau Lyonnat is her family home, and she spoke about some of her family doings growing up. My mind certainly doesn’t need any help to wander, it does that perpetually every minute of every day. But I can’t help but find myself in a state of constant reminder – anything can happen, and everything can change, and before you know it, what is most important in your life, can disappear.